Butterflies on Fire.

I met this guy once, and he changed my entire world. As cliche as that is, it's the truth. We met, and I swear the earth tilted on it's side. It was one of those moments where life does you a solid-- where it gives you a gift for everything it has and ever will put you through. This gift is something that I can never be thankful enough for. I can never repay the earth enough for it, though I could probably plant some trees, and make some nifty flowerbeds and stop people from destroying little forests. But no matter how many fancy, ferocious, forests I save it will never be enough. Ryan is his name, and it's the best name that has ever been uttered. To me, Ryan is many things-- to me Ryan is everything. Four little letters create his title, his name. Something so important, but I see beyond that. He isn't just a person, he is a soul. He is a beautiful soul inhabiting this earth and somehow wanted to take a detour and spend a little time with me. I won't complain, no time will ever be enough. I feel as if our love is an old love. It is something beyond this generation, this feeling-- the way our hearts beat as one, it's just a premonition that we are more than just a definition of "young love" -I feel as if we are love, itself. You might be thinking I'm just a little crazy right about now. But I can assure you my sanity is quite well. Ryan is a lot of things, he started out as a stranger, my waiter, my friend, my obsession, my boyfriend, long distance lover, my hope, my salvation, my love, my happiness, my fiance. I always want to tell the world our story, and I swear one day I will write a book and fill it completely with all of the moments that I want to just thank Ryan for sharing with me, because he has no idea how much he has changed me, and made me view my life, and-- myself even ... different. Better. He is better than anyone I can dream up. He is my soul mate, the person who I used to dream of when I was a wee little thing and I wanted a prince charming, someone to keep me company at night while I stared up at the stars in the dark night sky wondering where life would take me. What journey I would call mine. Quite deep thoughts for someone so young yes, but as I've said through all this time ... what is age? A number, that is just a blister on the adventures you will soon overcome, soon conquer. Age is a number, a number is time. Time is infinity. So age is obviously infinity. See Ryan brings something out in me that I can't explain, just look at this novel.. these words beg to escape their captivity within  my fingers. I'm so proud of us, of Ryan and Lauren.Yes I spoke in third person; but ignore it. We have overcome so much, and I want to tell everyone. I want to share our story with everyone, because believe me our struggle was real. It may have not been as hard as others, it may have been harder, but it is our struggle, and I can't imagine our love or our lives being any other way. I wouldn't want to share this adventure with any other soul. Only Ryan. I can't believe we are going to married, it feels so crazy and unreal to have come this far. To think of how we began, to think of our time together. I get sad sometimes because I want to go back to the beginning. Memories are important to me, ask Ryan. I remember most of everything, even the silly insignificant details. They are all significant to me, any time spent with him--with you, is important. I don't want to stop these words from coming because you feel me with such ... giddiness. With butterflies that are on fire. You are my butterfly on fire.