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Hello self, it has been quite a while since I've written anything to you.

I do apologize. A lot has happened, and in this version of a letter I want to talk of your wedding and the all the things one day you will enjoy reading all about. 

-It was the night before Easter and a lot of conversation had been going on about Ryan and you living together in  your mom's house. Talk about when and how it would all happen. It was broached that since we have been apart for so long why not just do it the right way and get married before you live together. Like the old days. You and Ryan talked it over and it was a very tough choice. Honest. because all you want is to be together, it is hard. It's like. We are so meant to be but everything just denies that to us. But hey, that is life and everything makes Ryan and I stronger. So look we made it, and I wouldn't change it for the world. So yes. The day after you decided that mom and I went to go antique shopping, there we found the wedding dress I will be wearing. It is from the 1840's, some tears but it is character. Fits like a glove, so neat. Later we found mom's dress from the exact same booth. At an amazing price. It is beautiful red, with lace, it is also quite old. It looks so beautiful on her. 

-A lot has happened and I don't even remotely feel like typing it all out, I'm real lazy and I can't get comfortable. The wedding will be done in a vintage theme. Most of what we got we got from work, Texas Charm, so that is quite grand. Gina took some engagement photos, mom picked all the awesome props to go with them and they honestly made the photos. -Ryan and I got our bands on Friday the 13th. We are such rebels. Riz. They are gorgeous. 55 days until I marry this wonderful man, and I'm such a lucky woman. Really I am. I sit up at night and just get so confused at what I ever did so right to deserve a man as incredible and impeccable as him. I can backtrack my steps, yet I never realize how I got so lucky. I'm lucky that day we first met, May 27, 2012 that he saw the love at first sight, that our love story of how we met is possible because he went out of his comfort zone and made a whole wonderful awkward situation. I'm so blessed that my mom made me get his phone number, because that day changed my life for.. forever. It is a crazy thought. What if we wouldn't have gone that day? What if you had been busy in the back and wouldn't have been at the front to sit us? (fun fact i'm listening to your favorite song from DragonForce the longest one they have. The one that is a book in song form.) I really do love you.Speaking of loving you, let me just document this one moment in time--On June sixth we went to see The Fault In Our Stars. A phenomenal book turned movie. I will not go in to detail of the story because you should know, really. But it is a heart-wrenching story, but also so heartwarming. After the movie was over and tears had fallen, yes Ryan cried more than. He stood up, and pulled my close to hug and kiss me. It was one of the sweetest... most, I can't even describe. It was a moment where I could feel the love he has for me inside of him, and it was all out in the open and I just. It made my heart melt. It also made me so grateful to be marring him, because how are you not even just an angel. You are, right. 

Also Also Also, we picked our wedding song. It is a song we have made fun of for forever. Open up a beer. Haha. The day we chose this song, Ryan brought a little Corona beer opener hat thing from work. <3 It was sweet he also brought one of his drums. c: But yes, so it was a sign. For sure. I played the song in the car on the way home, and suggested it. We both agreed pretty much instantly, then we each got a little emotional. Now I never get emotional like that so obviously that was a sign in itself. The song is something you wouldn't expect from us, but it feels vintage to me. The song tells a story, a story that we can relate to. The song makes us happy and it is very Lauren Ryan. It's "Video Games" by Lana Del Rey. Quite amazing.  

We get married so soon, and I can not wait. I'm so ready to be Lauren Michelle Johnson. I'm so ready for you to be my husband, and for me to do all your laundry. To wake up to your beautiful face every morning, to fall asleep with you, to just have a constant sleep over with my best-friend. It is so near, and I'm so happy. Never in a thousand years would I have ever pictured myself getting married at 18. But with you, it just is right. I know it is. There is no one else I wish to spend my life with. You are my favorite and you crack me up. I'm so in love with you, my heart beats so fast when you are near, and my soul ignites with a crack of magic. You are the best in me, and the better part of me. You're my other half. So thank you to all of the faeries, and werewolves for bringing us together. Because, it is pure, sweet, magic that did this. I'm so lucky and blessed. I'M GONNA GET MARRIED SO SOON, OMG. I really like this guy Ryan. P.s. 

Touch Peel Stand.

• Every heard of good music? I hope so. Not the crap in today society. Because, that is literal crap escaping from your speakers and wedging into your brain mind life. How gross is that? Real gross. You don't want that. So experience good music, get lost in those corners of YouTube where your soul can flutter and fly and be the dragonfly it so wishes to be. Right? Right.

Distance.

It's been a while since I've said hello. I'm sorry for the absence self. This blog is dedicated to myself. Here I am writing down these words and showing pictures and it is all to myself. I sometimes get weirded out by that, but then I remember my old diaries (with a cringe) and realize that at least I have spell check now. I think i't neat for me to do this, I just need to step up my game and keep the words a flowing. So. How has it been self? I've been pretty nifty as of late. These are some new glasses I bought for literally only 9.95. FREE SHIPPING. My favorite. I think I look quite classy, and quite like a modern Harry Potter love child with Buddy Holly, actually no not really. But hey, I dig these frames. I wanna feel retro on the outside, as I do on the inside. Born in the wrong era. I wish I would have been a teenager in the 40's or even 60's. Or even 70's. Not in the 2000's how lame can I get now. 

Lazy days.

I love lazy days. I just adore the days where the time can escape me and I can do whatever I please with my family near me. Like today I crafted my heart away, and then went out with my mom a little to do some shopping for my grandma and more crafty stuff for my TymeofYore products. It was so much fun. I love to just hangout with my mom, and browse around. The weather was cold, but it's okay. Then tomorrow is my Ryan day and I'm very excited because I do miss him. So yes. I loved today. Thank you. 

Dear, Deer, Doe.

I like to dress up my face for occasions. I find joy in makeup and decorations. So I combined the two and made myself one with nature. Oh yes. I did. Here are some pictures from that joyous time. I have a video as well, but eh it's not so great, so I will film a new one soon. But here is my deer pictures. Enjoy.

Vintage dress. Literally.

So my mom and I always go to this old Antique and Craft Mall, we find some pretty nifty things in there. Quite easy to lose yourself in the awesome-ness that is vintage items and other peoples "trash" that we grow to treasure. It was on of these visits that we found a "vintage grab bag" it was full of fabrics- be it lace, embroider hankies, table runners, just some pure awesome things. In this grab bag was this dress. It has a nude under-layer that matches my skin tone nicely, there is a green lace top layer that is beautiful. The sleeves are unfinished but I actually really like the look of them. There is two pieces of extra fabric over the bust, and it is different but very intriguing and flattering. The bottom has some little swoopy details, I really love it. It is quite big so I cinched the waist with a black belt, and grabbed some sassy black and white heels. I love this look. I was so proud of myself for putting it together.

Lace and turquoise.

I love this little dress that we thrift-ed a while ago. It's the perfect combination of lace and vintage and imagination. I fall in love with it over and over each time I wear it. These shoes are such a beautiful turquoise that isn't properly picking up on the camera. This outfit reminds me of something out of the new show Reign. It makes me a happy person. So hear do look upon it.